Archive for November, 2006

Stand Up For Love by Destiny’s Child

* Thru this past week… thru this bad times… I play and sing this song on my head over and over again…Though it’s a song for children, but it keeps me strong to move on with my life… Thru this bad times… I will try to never give up… and try to never leave you, just like what we promised God in our vows….

STAND UP FOR LOVE

There are times I find it hard to sleep at night / We are living through such trouble times / And every child that reaches out / For someone to hold / For one moment / They become my own

And how can I pretend that I don’t know / What’s going on? / When every second / And every minute / Another soul is gone

And I believe that in my life / I will see / An end to hopelessness / Or giving up / Or suffering

Then we all stand together this one time / Then no one will get left behind / And stand up for life / Stand up / And here me sing / Stand up / For love

I’m inspired / And hope / For each and everyday / That’s how I know that things are going to change / So how can I pretend that I don’t know / What’s going on? / When every second / And every minute / Another soul is gone

And I believe that in my life / I will see / An end to hopelessness / Or giving up / Or suffering

If we all stand together this one time / Then no one will get left behind / And stand up for life / Stand up / For love

And it all starts right here / And it starts right now / One person stand up man! / And the rest will follow / From the forgotten / And From the Unloved

I’m gonna sing this song, / And I believe / That in my life / I will see / An end to hopelessness / Or giving up / Or suffering

If we all stand together this one time / Then no one will get left behind / And stand up for life / stand up and sing / Stand up / For love

Curhat Session, Jam 1 Malam

Curhat Jam 1 Malam…

GOD BLESS at 1am
God bless
for giving me some true friends… some bestfriends whose always “be there” in good and bad times… those who don’t nag or complain, those who don’t sweat small things, those who don’t demand another bestfriend “to always be there” aaaaallll the time whatever the circumstances are (aduh, irritating deh)… God bless I can be bestfriends with those people without living in certain “rules and obligations” of the “Indonesian Bestfriend rules of thumbs definition” God Bless in spite of the most super-duper difficulties (ever in my life) I am facing right now, those true friends are exists and fill my emptiness moments to joy with laughter…

One of those special people is Dewi... she called me in the middle of the night, while I was sleeping like a baby… She woke me up and I was excited getting her call… I really miss her…we haven’t talk quite a long time… she lives in the State, San Francisco to be exact, and we don’t contact each other often coz we both live in such a busy life… But talking to her, sharing and exchanging our stories really help me lifting up some heavy burden on my shoulders…

We talked almost over an hour… (wah cellphone bill gue roaming abis pasti.. but I don’t care…!) It’s been a long time since the last time we had heart to heart conversation… She really helps me getting my misery out of my chest… Thank God for having her as one of my closest friend…

Everyday I learn new things.. and tonight, I learned that I wasn’t alone after all… (whatever other people translate whatever that means, just let it be their imagination and prediction…coz I won’t tell) but regardless of my grumble and self-pitty, hell yeah… I wasn’t alone…

It is 2 am now.. everybody’s asleep.. I am here, still in the middle of the night, alone in my room and for the first time within this almost past 3 weeks, I wasn’t feel alone at all..! (I hope I don’t feel this as a temporary being..hehehe) I looked at a clock on my wall, it’s 2.30 am already….

*Sigh… I should be thankful with the life God’s given me… Regardless of the cobaan terberat gue, God Bless for giving me a very good job (secara negara ini sedang susah…) and for having me surrounding with family who loves me unconditionaly, and bestfriends who sincerely care about me… God Bless for giving me great true friends….!!!

Thank You Vivi
Sms loe kemaren bikin gue bahagia, yang saat gue trima, gue sedang berada di antara kepingan kepingan sebuah porselen antik berharga yang hancur berantakan (*hehehe masih bisa pake bahasa kiasan…) I love you Vi.. you are my very very bestfriend… I don’t know what I do without you… Ngga ada kata kata lain selain Thank You!

Vi, you are a great listener, great advisor, you don’t judge and yet you don’t take side, you can clear mind and you give the best support ever… you feel and put yourself in other’s shoes… you are a trully great bestfriend !!! I am so lucky to have you as one of my bestfriends.

Yang paling bikin gue bless adalah though kita ngga selalu telponan tiap hari atau tiap minggu, atau kita ngga selalu ketemuan sering sering (paling di usahakan sebulan sekali ya..pake acara bolos segala hehehe…), tapi yang paling penting kita sama sama tau bestfriend itu lebih dalem daripada harus selalu ada dan update melulu setiap waktu… bestfriends yang bisa menjalanin hidupnya sendiri2 tanpa takut di judge dan takut di sensi-in (apalagi negatif thinking) dan pada saat senang atau susah kita baru mengabari untuk berbagi (tanpa takut di komentarin “doo kemane aje loo?!”) dan kita bisa langsung saling expressing our emotion the moment we contact each other, (bahkan ngga pake contact udah ngebatin kayak telepati), that kind of cool friendship we have is the one I treasure the most!!!


Me Alone
Aaaahhhhhhhhhh…. Aaaarrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhh! Biasanya gue kalo ke dokter atau ke PIM sendirian ngga masalah… kali ini gue freaking out! Allah…!! please listen to my prayers…!!! please please please……

Dance With My Father

Dance With My Father

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again

Ooh, ooh

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah
Then finally make me do just what my mama said

Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he
Would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again

Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear her, mama cryin’ for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I’m prayin’ for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved
I know You don’t do it usually
But Lord, she’s dyin’ to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

*I think this song is not limited to people’s late father, but to those whom missing the man/men they are loved…

Life


Life

I’m afraid of the dark,
‘specially when I’m in a park
And there’s no-one else around,
Ooh, I get the shivers

I don’t want to see a ghost,
it’s a sight that I fear most
I’d rather have a piece of toast and
watch the evening news

Life, oh life, oh life, oh life, doo,
doot doot dooo. Life, oh life, oh life,
oh life, doo, doot dooo

I’m a superstitious girl,
I’m the worst in the world
Never walk under ladders,
I keep a rabbit’s tail

I’ll take you up on a dare, anytime, anywhere
Name the place, I’ll be there, bungee jumping,
I don’t care!

So after all is said and done
I know I’m not the only one
Life indeed can be fun, if you really want to
Sometimes living out your dreams,
Ain’t as easy as it seems
You wanna fly around the world,
In a beautiful balloon

*My life is sooo interesting, I think it would make a great soap opera, beating “the bold and the beautiful” seasons hahahaha… my life is so full of ups and down, extreme and mellow… man… sometimes I think I am a trully superwoman who can handle things people can’t….never I imagine myself in where I am standing now..in the middle of a storm and crisis but hanging on and standing tall… I just need God’s miracle to make me stronger…Insya Allah .. God please make me stronger…